My current situation
On 13.01. I landed in Germany and my wonderful girlfriend picked me up from the airport in Prague. Since then, I spend a lot of time with my girlfriend and with my family. Of course, everyone is happy to see me again and is eager to hear what I have to tell. There is always the question of how long I will stay. I would also like to know the answer. In the beginning, this put me under total pressure and stress because everyone has different expectations for this question. Of course, my mind tries to give an appropriate answer directly. But I don’t have it yet, so I started to say something. In doing so, I felt everyone got a different answer. For me, it was just a matter of being freed from this pressure and stress that others trigger in me because they desperately want an answer.
Already 1 to 2 months ago, I had asked myself this question and could observe how my mind tries to find a suitable solution. It is incredibly exciting to perceive the interesting possibilities my mind comes up with. But the mind is not made to make decisions. The more I think about my own future, the more doubts arise in me as well. Basically, I would like to stay in Germany as long as Theresa has semester break. As soon as her studies resume in full swing, I would be back on track. This is the basic idea. When exactly is open and where too. Currently, I only know that it is correct for me to be in Germany. There are one or two tasks for me here, and that’s one of the reasons I came back.
Consideration of the reactions
At first, I didn’t think much of it when everyone asked me about my plans. But at some point I asked myself the question. Why does everyone ask me that? Of course, I can understand that they are curious and that is also something beautiful. Almost no one, on the other hand, asked me what I was going to do here in Germany. The other reason for these kinds of questions is the conditioning we all live in. For a long time, I didn’t understand Ra’s statements when he talked about how we still live in a 7-centered world. This world was dominated by logic and strategies. Our whole current system is designed around logic, focus and strategies. Everything is extremely focused on the mind. This creates enormous mental pressure and can lead to a wide variety of problems.
When we were 7-centered beings, it was primarily about survival. That is, we as humanity have logically focused our minds on something in order to develop a strategy to ensure our survival. Of course, this is a brilliant thing and has brought us to where we are today as humanity. This way of living is still strongly ingrained in people, causing many to live out of fear and make decisions based on their strategies from the mind. Especially in Germany, this strategic mindset is embedded like concrete in people’s minds.
It always revolves around the theme of fear of death. Don’t take any risks. Staying in the comfort zone and living in strategies rather than really living fully. All insurance companies use this mechanism to attract customers. Also, statements like, you need a secure job after all. How will you get money for your pension later? What if this happens or that happens? This mechanism is so deep within us that it is very challenging to let it go.
9-centered beings
Due to the discovery of Uranus in 1781, our body has changed a lot. Since then, we no longer live in a 7-centered body, but in a 9-centered body. Among other things, the solar plexus has been added and we have become emotional beings. 50% of humanity has a defined Emotional Center and thus half of the people make their decisions based on their emotional wave. The 9-centered being is an intermediate being and is needed for the next evolutionary mutation. This involves moving away from active to passive. An active body functions completely differently than a passive body. As humanity, we are mutating away from the active logical being to the passive receiving being. There are many other different aspects, which I may explain in another post.
Primal Trust
My mentor kept telling me in our first meetings to surrender to my primal trust. Phew, that’s easier said than done. The longer and more intensively I study human design, the more I understand primal trust. There is only one way out of this dilemma. Trust your type, strategy and authority. This is your built-in navigation system and will navigate you through your life. Anything else will lead you astray and bring you suffering, opposition and possibly illness. For us humans, it’s about walking our own individual path. Therefore, Ra Uru Hu also calls human design the science of differentiation.
I am aware that it is not easy to surrender to life and one’s own design. Letting go of thoughts and no matter what happens to you in life trusting your type, strategy and authority. We are constantly challenged by our environment and tested to see if we are truly living our unique essence. When I told my family about my plans to live abroad, my grandma said the following to me: If I could, I would prevent you from going abroad. Of course, that was hard for me at first. Inside, however, I knew that I wanted to live my life and not the wishes and ideas of others. At the same time, I had no idea what my life would be like. I just knew I had to get out of Germany and travel.
The unknown is the key
The cosmos has created an ingenious mechanism for us humans. We cannot know our own destiny. That is why the veil of forgetfulness is so important. Most people would change their destiny once they know what their life will be like. Now here comes the challenge that each of us has. Our mind always wants to know what the future will bring and thus triggers various fears in us. It is important to realize that this is only an illusion and it is not real what our mind tells us regarding the future. The more mental fears a person carries, the more paralyzed he is in life and the less he will live his uniqueness. I look at my mind like a little child and keep taking it by the hand and reassuring it. The first thing I do is accept my own mental fears or even my mental impatience. Then I confront this fear and explore what lies behind it. As soon as I jumped into the fear, it also dissipated in the blink of an eye.
It always helps me a lot to ask myself if this fear or situation is really relevant at this moment. If it is not, it is only a mental concept and I dissolve it directly.
As soon as the mind becomes calmer, we can also deal better and better with the situation of not knowing what is happening in our lives. If we knew the details of our lives, I think it would be rather boring. That’s why I love traveling so much. I only plan major decisions in advance because, yes, I need my 28 days as a minimum lead time. Otherwise, I live completely in the day and let life surprise me. As a generator, of course, it’s okay to get up in the morning and always do the same thing if it’s the correct thing for him to do. In order to be able to find what is correct for each of us, we must distance ourselves from our minds and surrender to the unknown in life. Life always goes on and there is always a reason why things happen. Sometimes we get a break and are allowed to relax, sometimes it gets down to the nitty gritty and we are challenged on all levels.
The magic of life
In human design, there is a beautiful car metaphor to describe us as human beings. Our body(design crystal) is the car. The magnetic monopole is the driver of the car. The passenger sitting in the back looking out the window is the soul(personality crystal). Our greatest challenge as humans is to experience and enjoy life without interfering in it. As a soul, we experience life in a human form and are guided and directed by our body through authority.
We have never learned to trust our bodies. Instead, we trust our minds or other people, often just taking opinions and beliefs from others. In the process, the mind always creates worries or brings out the worries that we get implanted through media, etc. The only thing that can give you security in your life is your confidence in your own design.
